everyday joys.

don’t you just hate it when life seems to be thrown at you all at once? from every direction? that’s what life feels like right now. and it doesn’t help that i’m slowly owning up to the idea that i am clearly addicted to facebook and twitter and anything else that distracts me from the true essence of life. the Life Giver. Jesus Christ.

i wish that sometimes i could have all i want and do all i want and still be the daughter of the King, but i can’t. okay, let me take that back, i CAN, but then what makes me different from anybody else out there? where is the distinction? oh, that Christ is just one of the many things i worship in my life?

my pastor this morning was talking about how the actions and choices we make here on earth affect what happens to us when we die. if we are true born-again believers, then we will be going to heaven, hands down. however, something that i haven’t put much thought into is the treasures that we will have in heaven, the fact that what we do down here change what we get up there. i know that the Christian life isn’t about what we GET, however, how much would it suck to stand before God and be judged on every choice i made and every word i said and every thought i had, and then have my reward be based off of my shortcomings!

there is now way on the earth that i will ever be able to be good enough to never judge someone by their appearance or to never make fun of someone just to make myself feel better or to never give into temptation.

now all i feel is lost and hopeless.

my demons are so much bigger than what i can handle.

but the beauty of it is, that i can’t do it, but He can. he is holy and is the giver of my holiness; my very undeserved, holiness.

it is not easy to fight myself. because that is what i’m doing, essentially. who better to combat the sinful desires and lusts that haunt my soul then the God that created me?

i know that our actions, thoughts and decisions still matter, but isn’t it nice to know that you’re not in the fight alone?